Christa Tuesday - 27 Weeks

Christa had her six-month checkup yesterday and it went really well. She is 26-1/2" long (73%) and weighs 15 pounds 13 ounces (42%) with a head circumference of 16-3/4" (56%). She got her shots and only cried for a very short while. The doctor did a urine sample and it wasn't "perfect" so I get to bring her back next week and try again. I guess girls have more going on downstairs than boys do so she wanted to rule out a UTI although she didn't seem overly concerned. We did see the beginning of a tooth in the lower left gum region that the doctor thinks may poke through within the week.
Miss Christa has a little bit of a cold right now with some sneezing and boogers so she hasn't been sleeping so great. Over the weekend she was up every couple hours and on Sunday night I decided to let her "cry it out" and not give her the boob to get her to go back to sleep. It was a rough half hour and the chupie had to come into play as did some back rubbing but she managed to go down for a solid 6 hours afterward so that's that. She's at the age where she doesn't need middle of the night feedings so this is what we must do. I'm a mean mommy.
On Saturday I put Christa on her blankie (she's long outgrown her wee mat with danglies) in front of the TV while I was doing a few things in preparation for Casey's party. I was gone a few minutes and came back to find her clear across the room. I immediately asked Casey if he moved her and although he denied it, I was convinced he did and he got sent to his room. Husband and I were with her and she proceeded to roll across the room so mommy owed Casey an apology and now realizes her little girl is on the move. Maria brought her a little walker thing and she is just trotting right along Maria's hardwood floors. I fear the future with a mobile baby friend.


Miscellaneous Birthday Fun Tymz Weekend Pics

 Casey's Lego Master Yoda Cake
 My baby daddy making crack-wings
Me & My Baby Friend, Christa tooty booty
 I'm taking the picture so that makes for four generations
 You know your party rocked when the night ends with post-bath naked bounce house time.
Christa reaping the benefits of her big brother's birthday
The Friday children looking super gangsta
Casey with Life-Sized Darth courtesy of BFF & Co. on his actual birthday.


Casey Will Be 4 Haiku Friday

 Just a few days old
With a cute little pucker
Just like his daddy
 A year just flew by
Curls to spare on his wee head
The best toes in town
And then he was two
And obsessed with Pixar's Cars
Brought them everywhere
Where'd my baby go?
Three years old and a big boy
A mind of his own
Sunday he'll be four
And on his way to Pre-K
A great big brother


Christa Tuesday - 26 Weeks

This photo was taken yesterday. My little girl is six months old. Half a year has flown by. How is this possible when I feel like I just brought her home from the hospital? Being pregnant seems like yesterday! She is sitting up pretty well now and managed to remain upright for her JCPenney pictures so that was super cute. Only six more months of living at that department store so I just can't wait for that to be done.
Christa is still working on mama and baba. She is very chatty lately and is puckering up her lips and blowing raspberries. She's also been crying a lot more than usual and I am going to blame that on a growth spurt because her appetite is insatiable. I think she also might just be frustrated that she's not able to really move on her own. She's not crawling yet but I think it is only a matter of time because she has been rolling from tummy to back and back to tummy like it is her job.
Other than that, it's just the same old baby stuff. She loves to grab things and shove them in her mouth. That 6 month sign only lasted about 1 minute after it was made because she tried to devour it. One thing I absolutely adore is that if I smile at her, she smiles back. "Beams" even, that's probably a better description. She also seems to know that her name is Christa so she'll look at you when you say her name. She's just a darn pleasure to have around and I can't get enough of her.


Mid-August Haiku Friday

Our family portrait
Has been postponed because of
Damaged male faces
Casey's eye's swollen
And Husband has broken out
Like a teenager
This week has been rough
Not sleeping and work's a bear
So beer me. Thank you.


Depression Hurts Everywhere

Because news of the passing of Robin Williams has been unavoidable, the topic of depression is being discussed openly and frequently. I decided to do a search on my use of the word "depression" here on the old blog and there were quite a few posts that popped up. I have definitely had my struggles over the years with this very topic although there has only been one instance when suicide became sort of a reality in my life. I don't think I knew at that time what depression was but I found myself frequently thinking terrible thoughts while I was driving that focused on self harm. I thought about what it would be like to drive the car off a cliff or into the center divider. I wondered what would happen if I threw myself from a car in motion if I was a passenger. It wasn't just a one-time thing, it went on for months.
Finally, one day, I found myself crying uncontrollably at work. It is sort of a stressful place sometimes and that day I guess I cracked. For some reason, I just ended up telling my boss and my dad that I was thinking terrible thoughts about hurting or killing myself. It wasn't a plan to commit suicide, but the thoughts definitely were fatalistic in nature. My boss gave me the number to a suicide hotline and to a psychologist his daughter used when she went through a nasty bout of depression. I remember calling that suicide hotline and wondering what the fuck I was doing, but I did it. And somehow it actually made me feel better.
I went to that therapist a few times and we talked at length about many, many things. At some point we concluded that I was pretty self aware and that maybe we had reached the point that therapy wasn't really going to be the solution to these thoughts. I talked to my doctor and we tried Prozac and Zoloft. I was medicated for years and eventually, just weaned off of them. I remember the shame and embarrassment I had because I was on anti-depressants but it seemed to pale in comparison to actually being depressed. I'm so glad I had people I trusted that I could turn to and talk to. I'm so grateful my harmful thoughts never became a reality.
In reading about depression and suicide in the wake of Robin Williams taking his own life, it has been interesting to see so many varying thoughts and perspectives. It's good to see discussions that weren't happening two days ago. It's very clear that the United States needs to shift its perspective and treatment of mental health issues and perhaps this is the catalyst. Silver linings are everywhere, we just need to look for them.


Christa Tuesday - 25 Weeks

I took the picture on the left in the garage last night after we got home from visiting my brother nad his family for Auntie's birthday. It's funny to see how much she fills out her car seat now compared to when we were bringing her home from the hospital. She's so big! Time is going by so quickly. She doesn't even resemble the baby we brought home. Thank the stars above, she is back to sleeping through the night which is so lovely. She has been consistently sleeping from 8-5 and I hope that remains the norm.
Christa's big accomplishment this week is sitting up for longer periods of time unassisted. When she tips over she basically splats on her face but while she's sitting her posture is rigid and upright. It's really cute. She also has been doing this thing when she's on her back where she will do an abdominal crunch as if she's trying to sit up. I think she's working on her core (#crossfit). She is also working on reaching and grabbing anything she can and shoving it into her mouth.
Other than that, it's just baby stuff. She's been working on saying "mom" I think. Lots of "M" sounds. Mum. Mama. Mom. That kind of thing. She was working on her Bs for a while but that got put on the back burner. She was sort of coughing last night because that was a sound she could make but not because she was coughing. She's also giggling a lot more and her tickle spot is above her left boob. A laugh is guaranteed if I pretend to eat her and gum her right there while saying nom nom nom. She's also ticklish under her chin around her collar bones. Nothing is sweeter than that laugh.